Friday, January 8, 2010

Supposedly, I will write a post in reply to KS, but I will need lots of time for that as it's really of a lot of hearty stuff in there (Sunday maybe?). But anyway, this post is written because a friend of mine said something tonight that made me stay silent and think for a while. And it really struck me out of the blue.

Maybe because it simply is something that I always refuse to see.

I treasure every person that has come into my life and gotten to know me and every individual that I have come to know too.

And sometimes that bond in my heart is just too strong for me to realize the other sides are pulling it back and away.

As you all already know (or haven't), I am not much older than most of you but I have stuck around here long enough to see and go through many things that many of you might have not. Years ago, I had a wonderful time in Red Cross and met wonderful friends there, many of whom are still among my best these times around. I had my OCIP team too (we called it International Project) and we are very close, much like a family and the ties sometimes feel like blood ties. We stuck together during the months of preparation and then during those hard days in a foreign country. When we were back, everyone is so close to one another that we felt no distance. And we had so much htht that we really cared about how the others were going through their life. We had lots of catching up and outings and so on.

Things were cosy. Hearts were warm. Friends were around.

But sometimes there is a fact of life that always comes around the corner at the time when you wish it wouldn't. "People come and go." a member in my OCIP gang said while htht with me today. I was frozen for a moment. It is true and I do not deny the truth value of that simple fact. But there is a whole lot of distance to travel between recognizing the truth value of something and accepting it. I know it's valid but it's really hard for me to accept.

I always wish things would always be frozen in their best moments. But they don't. Life goes on. All I can do now is to reminisce about the most precious moments we had through the photos we took and the stories we told. Groups eventually drift apart. It's not like my team all walk in different directions now. The core people who always htht with me are always around. It's just that as someone who brought together that gang, I sometimes feel a bit sad seeing how people are moving further apart now.

However, there is another fact of life that I need to learn, "Moments of the present and the days to come are so precious and one must treasure every bit of it."

People come and go.

And this time the Polar Bears came into my life. You all are really a fun bunch to hang around with. I do not know when you all will depart from my story and I turn to another chapter. What I can only do is to treasure every moment I am around with this gang. Everyone is not close to everyone else. Some are closer to others. These can't be helped, but may change in the future (for the better of course)... But I hope last Chistmas is the past and it is high time for we, polar bears, to welcome spring and bask in its days of sunshine, cherishing every single second... Don't be cold like Christmas always...

Let's do it...

KP

P.S. I hope I don't sound too emo and all. Yup, but if you know me well then you know sometimes I will reflect quite a fair bit. And thanks Deric for the htht. =)